Day 2: I am not an accident.

  

Well, hmmm....so far I'm not measuring up to my commitment to write every day...I'm doing horribly actually! (My weakness has been exposed...)
And yet, I have not given up. I have come back.


To Be known:
Several years ago, I was in a relationship with a man who believed that I was the woman he wanted to marry. When I would ask him how he knew, he would start mentioning his "list" of characteristics he wanted ina  wife and said that I "fit" all of them. Now, on the surface that sounds nice and great and all of that, but on a deeper level I realized  something. I didn't want to be a "list" of ideals to someone, I wanted to be known, truly known  as "me" and not to just fulfill a "quota" of characteristics. Over time I came to truly understand, by God's grace, that he didn't truly love me, or know me...he just had an idea of me. (Going in to how I know is a completely different story for another time perhaps.)

But that is NOT how it is with God. He doesn't just have an idea about who I am...What helped me walk through the ending of this relationship was the truth that even if this man didn't know me, I was already fully and completely known. In fact, before the creation of the world I was known. Before I was even born I was full known....what?! Really?! How is that possible? I need to let that strange truth soak in for a minute.

Now I'm not saying that I'm not created to be known by other human beings or that it isn't right, good and possible for this knowledge to occur between friends, family, husbands/wives, etc. but it will never match the depth of God's knowledge of me. There is no one else in this world who will ever know me as deeply and completely as my Creator God.

So, the wonderful truth is that my deepest desire to be fully known and fully loved has already been realized. So, if God doesn't plan for me to be married, I do not have to be deceived in thinking that because I'm not married I will never be known deeply. Chapter 2 in the Purpose Driven Life has really opened up this truth for me to reconsider, and as I reflected on this chapter about being created by God for a purpose, His knowledge of me really stuck out. So, I decided to take tour through Scripture to find out just what God has to say about this...
Here is what I've found:

The Lord spoke to Moses, "I will also do this thing for which you have spoken; for you have found favor in my sight and I have known you by name." ~Exodus 33:17

"For the Lord your God has blessed you in all that you have done; He has known your wanderings through this great wilderness, these 40 years the Lord your God has been with you; you have not lacked a thing." ~Deuteronomy 2:7

"...hear from heaven, your dwelling place, and forgive and act and render to each according to all his ways, whose hearts You know, for  you alone know the hearts of all the sons (and daughters) of men; that they may fear you all the days that they have lived in the land..."~ 1 Kings 8:39-40

This is what the Lord God of Israel says..."But I know you well-where you stay and when you come and go. I know the way you have raged against me..." ~2 Kings 19:27

"What more can I say to you about the way you have honored me? You know what your servant is really like..." ~1 Chronicles 17:18

"But He knows the way I take; when He has tried me I shall come forth as gold." ~ Job 23:10

"I will rejoice and be glad in your loving kindness, because you have seen my affliction, you have known the troubles of my soul" ~ Psalm 31:7

"If we had forgotten the name of our God or spread our hands in prayer to foreign gods, God would surely have known it, for he knows the secrets of every heart." ~Psalm 44:20-21

"O Lord, you have examined my heart and know everything about me. You know when I sit down or stand up. You know my thoughts even when I'm far away. You see me when I travel and when I rest at home. You know everything I do. You know what I am going to say even before I say it, Lord" ~Psalm 139:1-4

"You made all the delicate, innter parts of my body and knit me together in my mother's womb...you watched me as I was being made in utter seclusion, as I was woven together in the dark of the womb. You saw me  before I was born...every moment was laid out before a single day had passed." ~Psalm 139:13-16

"Search me O God and know my heart, test me and know my anxious thoughts..." ~Psalm 139: 24

"But now O Jacob, listen to the Lord who created you. O Israel the one who formed you says...do not be afraid, for I have ransomed you, I have called you by name, you are mine!" ~ Isaiah 43:1-2

"Everyone who is called by My name, and whom I have created for My glory, whom I have formed, even whom I have made." ~Isaiah 43:7

"Listen to me, descendants of Jacob, all you who remain in Israel. I have cared for you since you were born. 

yes, I carried you before you were born. I will be your God throughout your lifetime-until your hair is white with age. I made you, and I will care for you. I will carry you along and save you." ~Isaiah 46:3-4

"Even before He made the world God loved us and chose us in Christ to be holy and without fault in his eyes. God decided in advance to adopt us into hi own family by bringing us to himself through Jesus Christ...Furthermore, because we are united with Christ, we have received an inheritance from God, for he chose us in advance, and he makes everything work out according to His plan." ~Ephesians 1:4-5;11

"He chose to give birth to us by giving us His true word. And we, out of all creation, became His prized possession." ~James 1:18